For the past few days these are best words i’ve ever heard!!!
I’m actually longing for people who speak the same language as me.. who are from chennai and it feels so much at home to speak to somebody like that!!!
Today a girl called me about a house she wanted to rent.. when she asked me “Are u from south india?” i felt the familiar tug.. and then came ..”Which part?” “Chennai”..”Oh really Me too”!!! and the conversation swtiched to tamil..”Chennaila enga??”
I din’t know i was attached to a place or a language.. i’ve lived in pilani for four years..even civilisation existed in the barest.. but we had a familiar crowd.. i’ve been in bangalore for 6 months for internship but again with familiar crowd..
This time am here for i dont know how long.. but it does feel like years since i spoke to people without wondering if am making grammatical errors.. if am making sense.. sometimes it irritates me how people start talking in hindi jus assuming the rest of us are as fluent as they are.. din’t they say english is the universal language.. and it doesn’t hurt to know if the other person knows as much hindi as u..
Although i dont have a problem with understanding hindi,i have a problem speaking it! I speak quite fluently for a person who hasn’t studied it, but jus learnt it on the fly, still the attitude irks me and beleive me there are some people who wouldn’t stop talking in hindi even if they know the other person din’t understand much…Talk about manners!! SIGH!!!
Anyways this is not about my anger against hindi-speaking wallahs, this is about how much u long for familiar things when ur in unfamiliar territory. How much i long for my mom’s potato curry, her sambhar, rasam,even curd..although it tastes the same here!!!
Its about coming home and watching sun TV for a while.. talking in tamil..watching tamil movies.. having colleagues who know what its like to watch a rajni movie in udhayam with people throwing confetti and whistling so hard u cant hear any of the dialogues.. Darn!!!!
I do most of these things even now.. watching tamil movies, watching sun TV after goin home..making rasam.. but i miss something.. its the feeling of belonging to a place.. and bangalore still feels foreign even if i’ve been here for a while.. chennai might not have enough water..its prob sweaty and f***ing hot in may… u prob dont have so many pubs and eat-outs.. but still its heaven for me.. i guess thats what its for everybody ..the connection you have to some places are not expressable.. cannot be penned.. but only felt and long for!!!
mebbe someday i would go back.. jus to feel like being at home amidst the noise and the madness!!!!